And the worry begins...

Because of carrying multiples I had to go for ultrasounds once a month. I honestly can't remember exactly which ultrasound it was, but at some point I went for an ultrasound and they told me that they would need to keep an eye on "Baby A's" kidneys. They explained that this could be an issue that would resolve on it's own, but that if it didn't he may require surgery after he was born to fix them. A friend of mine had just been through this with her baby and while it was scary, I knew it wasn't the end of the world. I thought "as long as that's the only thing that's wrong then we'll be just fine." Oh how I wish that had been the only problem...

At the next ultrasound they told me that the issue with the kidneys had already resolved itself so we no longer would need to worry about that. Yay! Then she went on to take the other measurements and the worry intensified. You could tell that something wasn't right, but of course the ultrasound techs are not allowed to tell you anything, so in comes the doctor. I began to panic. They explained to us that "Baby A- Jason" had something called ventriculomegaly. Basiclly it is fluid in the ventricles in the brain. Of course I immediately thought the worst. They explained that we would have to monitor him carefully and it was just a waiting game to see if things improved. They sent us to a genetics specialist so she could explain what could be caused from this. We were told that we would be facing one of the following:

1. nothing (everything could be just fine)
2. Down's Syndrome (not what I wanted, but I could deal with that)
3. Many other types of genetics diseases that I had never heard of
4. Death

Okay, so basically we don't know anything. I went for so many ultrasounds! I loved them because I got to see the babies, but I hated them because they made me so nervous! At each one they would take measurements of both babies. Connor never gave us reason to worry, he always looked great. Jason's ventricles continued to cause us concern. Every time we went for an ultrasound they would tell us that we are having big babies! Jason's head was measuring very large which was also a cause for concern. All we could do was wait and hope and pray that once they were born we would find out that all the worry was for nothing. They would do an ultrasound of Jason's head once he was born to make sure the ventricles were the size they should be.